I am still disgusted by the mental gymnastics people did to justify supporting this band again. They just wanted more music. Tim tried to have his ex-wife killed. They don’t care.
It’s like the NFL. Player physically abuses a woman. If he’s a good player his team’s fans and organization don’t want to cut him for bad behavior.
I can’t get past that. I loved the old As I Lay Dying music but I’m almost equally disgusted by the bandmates. Just seemed like a money grab. Wovenwar wasn’t working out so they went back to what they knew.
This video tries to ask for forgiveness and dispel my feelings towards. This guy should have been in jail longer but he’s out now.
They all have to live on. They’re lives don’t just end. As much as I’d like to listen to them again I can’t. He’s a cowardly murderer and the rest of them are weak in my opinion.
For those of you who know me I can be all over the years know I’m all the over the place with forgiveness. Sometimes I easily forgive. Dying to forgive. Other times you guys know I’ll say I’d die before forgiving. That has changed for the better.
I forgave my parents a few years ago when I got professional therapy. I forgave one person in high school I was close with.
I never got to tell him in person and probably will never have the chance to tell him my half of it.
There are still some I won’t ever make amends with, unfortunately and fortunately. As I Lay Dying remains one of those unfortunate ones. I won’t forgive.
It’s a shame but I can’t trust this. There’s nothing they’ve done to show me that I trust as real remorse or redemption.
Maybe I simply can’t get past Tim trying to murder his ex-wife. I don’t know call me crazy.
Disaesthetic 