Tag: Personal
(I Think) I’m Ready
Photo by Alison Scarpulla
It’s odd writing that title but I do feel ready to date someone. I want to be with someone. I guess I didn’t expect to feel the urgency or the desire so soon, especially before Valentines day. This was the time a year ago I became single.
I’m hoping to go out with this girl I met on Halloween. She seems to be busy all of the time but I’m giving her the benefit of the doubt. I don’t know her and I would really like to. She probably is that busy.
She’s a single mom, which must be tough. I think it’s amazing she’s a mom. I must admit it’s attractive that she is. I want to be a dad someday and perhaps I’m getting ahead of myself but her having a child doesn’t scare me.
If anything I welcome it. I want to take on that responsibility.
There’s another one I’m interested in. She lives up north. If you’ve been reading these blogs I’ve mentioned her before. We’ve known each other for years but never met. Every time it almost happens we end up not meeting.
Part of me just wants it to happen so we can know if it’s just tension or if it’s more. I think she wants to know too. Either way I think we’ll both be happy.
Hopeful it happens soon or never.
I feel an urgency to try to meet someone. I’m trying Tinder again. I’ve gotten no matches of course but I’ll keep trying. I guess I don’t know how to meet someone still. I’m not sure what setting would offer the right opportunity to meet someone.
Parties seem to be the way I always meet someone. I guess I’ll keep going out and trying something new.
A Day in North Park
The last few weeks I’ve felt a lot of personal stress. I’ve had trouble with my car, my emotional baggage, and work has bothered me in some aspects. Today I had my usual day off and I made some solid plans ahead of time to get some joy out of my free time.
It was the correct kind of therapy, escape, or mini-vacation away from work and what is going on personally. Also having purchased a new car has relieved a lot of pressure.
North Park is my local get away. It’s the big city yet it’s still hip and communal. It’s urban but isn’t downtown. Contrary to popular belief there are places you can go that aren’t gentrified.
I went to a cafe two blocks away from University for some coffee, sandwich, and space to read my book in peace. I need more cafe time in my life.
Walked over to Red Brontosaurus Records a block on the other side. It’s small but one of the better shops I’ve been to. They have a ton of used retro games which are over priced but still cool to see.
Their vinyl collection is very strong. It’s not as big a store as Lou’s or Spin back in North County but there’s a lot of local band’s records and new vinyl from new bands. It’s not just reprints of classics. They had older original records too.
I walked away with a copy of a Texas is the Reason and Samuel split single 7″ from 1995 (fucking awesome!) and Katie Ellen’s first single 7″. I think it’s time for me to get a record player.
Took my stuff back to the new car and went to lunch at Sicilian Thing Pizza. Again, it’s a treat to get away from everything and have two slices with a beer. I also so thing gorgeous woman. She was having the same thing as me.
If only I knew how to strike up a conversation with a stranger at a pizza shop. Anyway, it was just a nice moment to love life.
I read my book a little while downing my drink but I needed to kill some time before driving back. Normal Records was just two blocks away.
My close friend Greg and I had just been there two weeks ago. I had gotten a nice Touche Amore live 7″ and a Metallica poster for Hardwired…To Self-Destruct. The owner Caleb is pretty friendly and remembered me.
We had a nice discussion about how he gets inventory from his distributor. He’s been trying to get something with Burger Records for a while. He showed me a Ride The Lightning and Kill’em All cassette he had just sold.
If only I could have had those… Instead I took home an original Big Star #1 Record, and a Daft Punk Random Access Memories and Joy Division Unknown Pleasures poster. I’m very happy with those. Caleb had just gotten the Big Star record and joked about having to order another one.
Today was the kind of day I needed to rejuvenate. This Super Bowl weekend will refresh me too.
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