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In light of everything that’s happened… Tuesday night, February, last summer… More than ever I’m prepared to wait and see. Sometimes, me more than others, jump to conclusions. With this Trump thing I’m deeply worried. I don’t know what’s going to happen but we are where we are. I will stand by my opinions and values of who I want as my president. On the other hand I will wait to see what Trump does. I don’t care if that’s popular or unpopular. 

As I started this blog, no matter what has happened I will wait and see. Patience will guide me. This time I’d rather clear my mind and feel a void. Open myself to reality and examine life as it comes. Last February I thought I’d rather die than live. I still struggle but now I know there’s more to life than a girlfriend or a relationship. I have myself to worry about. Happiness comes from yourself not from anyone or anything else. It took time and patience to see that. Had I given up I wouldn’t be writing this. 

Who knows what will happen with Trump today, tomorrow, in the future. He wasn’t expected to win. I didn’t expect to make it this far in life. In 2000 I couldn’t speak English, I was afraid in a new country, and I didn’t have a dad. I was severely behind in my education. Fear pushed me to be something for a long time I was not. Serenity after my previous life end and this one started has me feeling better about myself and focused on what I think about myself. Surrendering isn’t weak or giving up. It’s allowing yourself to shake illusions and see things for what they are. Nothing is one color. Reality is a full spectrum of color. We have to start seeing things for all their colors, shapes, and dimensions. Otherwise we will continue to jump to conclusions that won’t help us move forward.