North Park, CA

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I moved, again! This has been on the horizons for a while but it finally happened. My roommate and friend Amelia’s lease was finally up so the opportunity was there.

We moved yesterday and I’m feeling the results today. I wanted to work out before work but it was never going to happen (hysteric laughter). This week was punishing mentally and physically. Work was a grind with some personnel changes adding more work to the plate while I had this big move on my mind.

The increase in rent and such has kept my mind worried and stressed. I can handle it but I have to be more frugal now and watch my spending unlike before. My pay also didn’t go up as much as I hoped but I think with some patience that will come. I’m in the right position to achieve at work that will reward me.

Moving sure bleeds the wallet though. Since I got my new car I’ve been trying to catch up on my savings. I hate seeing it go down and down while spend but that should subside soon. Part of my stress also comes from planning my Japan trip in exactly a month.

Still haven’t booked a hotel for the first few nights and shit… Kinda brutal, but Andrew and I will work it out. Once I get back in May, work takes full priority again with summer time. This season could potentially overwhelm the whole company with business. I’m not certain we’re even prepared for the wave of demand coming our way.

It’s good for my career while in the sort term I worry about the physically and mentally toll. I’ll survive but I also don’t want to feel miserable because I’ve never felt that way about this wonderful place I work at. I love this place I want it to stay sacred forever. It’s been a foundation and sanctuary during the really tough stretch of 2016 and for the rest of the great times I’ve experienced living a good life independently.

Anyway, life is pretty good right now despite some personal stress. Next week I’m having a special visitor so I’m expecting more highs soon.

(I Think) I’m Ready

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Photo by Alison Scarpulla

It’s odd writing that title but I do feel ready to date someone. I want to be with someone. I guess I didn’t expect to feel the urgency or the desire so soon, especially before Valentines day. This was the time a year ago I became single.

I’m hoping to go out with this girl I met on Halloween. She seems to be busy all of the time but I’m giving her the benefit of the doubt. I don’t know her and I would really like to. She probably is that busy.

She’s a single mom, which must be tough. I think it’s amazing she’s a mom. I must admit it’s attractive that she is. I want to be a dad someday and perhaps I’m getting ahead of myself but her having a child doesn’t scare me.

If anything I welcome it. I want to take on that responsibility.

There’s another one I’m interested in. She lives up north. If you’ve been reading these blogs I’ve mentioned her before. We’ve known each other for years but never met. Every time it almost happens we end up not meeting.

Part of me just wants it to happen so we can know if it’s just tension or if it’s more. I think she wants to know too. Either way I think we’ll both be happy.

Hopeful it happens soon or never.

I feel an urgency to try to meet someone. I’m trying Tinder again. I’ve gotten no matches of course but I’ll keep trying. I guess I don’t know how to meet someone still. I’m not sure what setting would offer the right opportunity to meet someone.

Parties seem to be the way I always meet someone. I guess I’ll keep going out and trying something new.