Today started getting better when I got to work. When my day at work begins I usually feel better. It distracts me from everything that’s not going well for me. As I was working I received the email that I had been waiting for. I finally got a room to rent. Finally accomplished this prized achievement I had wanted all my life. This will boost my confidence and happiness in myself. I can say that I did this for myself and mostly on my own. Finally I can say I’m leave that god forsaken place called North County. No longer will I have to drive by the same places that remind me of the past. No longer will I have to see some faces I’d like to never see again. I can finally get a new change of scenery. I can get away from what I’ve lost and begin something new. Build a new empire.
Tonight I get to enjoy my progress. I am getting better. I still have more to improve and accomplish but I’ve made a big step! I’m moving and forever leaving North County, I hope, and I don’t want ever wanna go back. I get to work, make money, listen to game 5 of the NBA finals, and think about making my first move on my own. I’ll get to think about how to pack my things, what I can part with, and how I will decorate my new sanctuary. Now I can focus on doing other things in my new home and neighborhood. This definitely isn’t the best blog ever but I’m so damn happy right now and I just want to express it. Tomorrow will be the first day I start making decisions for my move and my trip to Big Bear this weekend. Words cannot express how positive I feel. It’s best I’ve felt since my break-up and I’m not gonna let it stop! I will not lose this faith and joy.
Disaesthetic 