Sebastian Langkilde

Record Store Day 2017

Just got back from Lou’s Records with a close friend Greg. We got lucky on Record Store Day exclusives. Lou’s can feel cramped but they’re organized and have practiced this day for years. I got #50 and Greg got 51. There wasn’t a huge omg item on this years list I wanted. Two years ago Metallica rereleased their demo tape and I barely missed getting a copy. I did however pick up a Straight Outta Compton tape.

This year I managed to get the last copy of the The Smiths The Boy with The Thorn in His Side single, the only Big Thief Mythological Beauty single Lou’s got, Pineapple Express soundtrack, and Sunny Day Real Estate The Rising Tide LP. The Smiths single has a demo mix and early version of “Rubber Ring” with cover art curated by Moz himself. Big Thief’s single gave me the heads up on their second album Capacity due June 9th. Also includes a non-album track “Breathe in My Lungs” on side B.

Unfortunately I could not get the Space Jam soundtrack. Some guy before got the last one. Ironically he also got The Smiths and SDRE records. I still walked away with four items I wanted, and life’s good already. Cannot complain. I debated getting a Big Star vol. 3 vinyl set but it was $40. I almost got a Springsteen 3 LP live set but it was like $78 so I cancelled that.

Overall I spent about $80. Totally worth it though. The Smiths one has some bragging rights. Pineapple Express is a great kick back record for the pad. I’m looking most forward to taking a deep dive into SDRE after not listening to them in some time. And of course my faithful and continued support of Big Thief. Cheers, and happy Record Store Day!

Good Times Roll

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As you can see above, we had our house warming party yesterday. I thoroughly enjoyed my new quart of Don Julio 70 special edition courtesy of a colleague. All these new people in my life I know through my roommate were there. It was nice to kinda lift my own veil and be myself a bit more. I like these people. I think they like me for the most part. I wouldn’t call them all my friends but some I would, and today I think I can call most of them my friends. This is a satisfying morning after.

I did learn this person I’m interested in is seeing someone now. Honestly, I’m just glad I know. I wouldn’t say I’m disappointed at all. Obviously it would have been nice to get to know her but now it’s established, and hopefully I can meet someone else. Lot’s of good vibes right now after a lot of professional fatigue. I’m not stressed or feeling burnt out. I’m certainly tired and feel depleted by the end of the day. This is probably a good thing since I’ve been putting in time and effort.

Just trying not to read into things as much as I used to. Doing so just psyches me out anyways. Whether there’s a deeper truth sometimes or not, it really doesn’t matter too much. Live your life, be happy about all these good things that happen to us, and work on those negative challenges to get better and move forward.

Vicariously

It’s a Saturday afternoon. I just took some photos with an old friend from college. I needed some professional shots taken for work and social media. It wasn’t a mandate or anything but I was looking through my Linkedin and saw the five plus year old profile pic I took for business purposes. I also don’t have any nice photos of myself so I used an opportunity to get some photos through a friend.

Summer is coming up and I’ll be traveling to Japan soon and working harder than ever at work. I guess I’m prepping my public face for career growth and attention online. Part of it is also to project where I am now and how far I’ve come from last April. I’m thinking about making this blog public so people can find me. I don’t have a really good reason to do it other than I want to. Maybe it’s ego. Either way it’s a thought.

I’m living in North Park now. It’s been about three weeks to the day. Seems like last week. Time moves quickly when you’re working and adulting. Today is the first real day I’ve had to just go out on my own and enjoy living down here. There’s a long list of places I’ve wanted to check out and visit. I’ll only get to a few today but this is what I fought hard to earn. Last year I was struggling to just make it through a day. Now I’m finally living.

There’s a long way to go as far as having all the things I want but I’m also at a personal wall with my goals. I wanted a lot of things a year ago but now I’m not really sure what I want two minutes for now. I don’t have much of a plan. I’m also realizing I have an ignorance for how to go about getting or doing the things I want.

Example, I want to hike and run trails in Balboa but it seems like such huge task to research. Seems like it’s information people in the area just know. It’s passed down from person to person. It’s just like meeting new friends or love interests. That prospect seems impossible to me. For one, I still have little confidence in myself or that someone would even find me attractive enough to have anything to do with.

Anyway I’m still working on my own negativity a year later; however, I’ve built up my strength to still thrive on my own. I have my own car, made a name for myself at work, live in North Park (ain’t cheap), money in the bank, and a lot of ambition. My relationship with my parents has never been better or stronger. I’m more proud of that than anything else. It’s meant a lot for us as a family. I’ve also allowed myself to have feelings for other people.

I’ve tried being with other people which I thought I could never do again. Now it hasn’t been the same but the fact that I’ve tried is great for my self-esteem. I just haven’t found someone quite yet. I was with someone last weekend and it was everything I could have hoped for but I wasn’t looking to commit or make anything of it. Felt nice to have someone treat me like I was special for the first time in a while. I’m not ready for anything like that yet. Remember I don’t know what I want after I finish this.

I don’t even know what I’m writing next. Maybe if that stops mattering life will get that much easier or better.