I don’t have anything important to write about. Just need the exercise for my mind. It helps expel so tension within. Exhume my anger, my negativity. I didn’t end up getting the room for rent I wanted. It pissed me off so much and threw me off my good streak. Of course, I should be in control and I can choose to let it affect me but I’m still struggling overcoming myself. I’m still mentally fragile when it comes to disappoint or failure. The dam didn’t break but the cracks have let water through slowly pounding the initial damage. I have to resist and hold myself accountable. Seal the cracks and keep the flood at bay. I’ll start looking for something else tomorrow. Tonight I finally get to see my close friend who now lives in Oregon with my close friend who has been their for me over the past few months. I have to drive home eventually but I’m not going to let that stop me from drinking however much I want. We’re meeting at Churchill’s tonight for drinks. No way I’m not having my way with that tonight. Pick up food on the way. Punish my body with bad food, alcohol, and cigarettes. I need that short term pleasure.
Tomorrow I’m off and I’m watching game 1 of the Finals with those guys. We’ve been waiting for this since last summer. I definitely felt like Golden State were favored to get back to Finals unless they lost to the ole Spurs. We all knew and predicted the Cavs would be back in the Finals. The team definitely have themselves more figured after almost two seasons together, their second Finals appearance, and most importantly everyone healthy. I don’t think the Channing Frye upgrade will make much of a difference but this one will be far more competitive than last year. I expect this to go seven with Golden State winning in the final minutes of the last game. Their personnel runs too deep and I’m not sure Coach James and Lue will magically find a line up that can deal with Curry, Thompson, Green, Barnes, and Iguadala like Oklahoma City developed throughout the playoffs. They don’t have long stretchy guys like Steven Adams, Enes Kanter, and Andre Roberson that can move on the perimeter.
Kevin Love and Kyrie Irving are defensive liabilities and can’t be expected to play all series long for extensive stretches. Matthew Dellavedova, Iman Shumpert, and the zombie of Richard Jefferson will have to play serious minutes. The Cavs will certainly push the Warriors to game 7, they may even steal one in Oakland, but they just don’t have the right guys to match with the death line up Golden State uses to finish games or catch up if Steph or Klay get hot from 3. I’m excited to watch this series start to unfold tomorrow night. I’ll be interested to see how the guys will watch. My friend from Oregon works in the sports media world so going back and forth with him will be fun and productive as far as understanding the game. My other friend hasn’t watched as much NBA over the year but I hope to see him entertained. Maybe I can turn him on to professional sports a bit more to getting him into more conversations. Thursday should be a better day. My outlook for that day has risen. Going to therapy will help me feel better and make progress. I look forward to tonight and all of tomorrow.
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